The Writing Desk

You guys all know what plagiarism defines. It's been ingrained in our heads since we were small kids that it is bad, immoral, and illegal. It can get you into big trouble. BIG trouble.

Why do people do it?
Do they really think they can get away with it?

I have chapters of Across the Ocean written on paper. I spent New Years eve 2007 alone working on it, and many many days in 2008 writing it.
I don't know why someone is trying to insist they have been writing this story for years, when I posted it years ago, have close to 3000 reviews, and hard, evident proof that it is mine.

Two users on ff.net contacted me to let me know that someone had copied my fic. One reviewed Across the Ocean and asked me if it was by me, or by this other poster. I said that I wrote it, I didn't even know who this person was. I had a pm from an angel of a user, blondebella, telling me that this other user on ff.net had copy and pasted Across the Ocean and posted it as her story.

I asked blondbella what the user told her. She was informed that Across the Ocean had been written for years by the plagiariser, and she didn't know why I was insisting it was my story, or how I got my hands on it. She was told that the Twilight fandom is ridiculous, and that this was clear and evident proof of what she needed to write for her column on Associated Content.

Is this really the best way to go about talking about how ridiculous Twilight fans are?
I'm pretty sure half of us know how crazy the other half is. I know for me, I don't let any of my friends know about the ff.net side of me. I'm nearly ashamed of it, because of just how crazy some fans are.

The fact of the matter is, this is a fanfiction I wrote myself, came up with the ideas for myself, translated french parts in myself and then edited once I was told by actual francophones that I got it wrong. If she wanted to make a point on how weird Twilght fans are, plagiarising was not the best way to go about it.

I'm fairly certain that if you'd written a shitty fic and gotten all of your facts wrong, half of your reviews would be flames along the lines of "EDWARD CULLEN DOESN'T HAVE MIDNIGHT BLUE EYES, AND HE SPARKLEZ IN THE SUNLIGHT, NOT GO UP IN FLAMEZ. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT A VAMPIRE IS???" I can assure you reviews would be like that.

Not only was my story plagiarised, by Chedea, a well known author who has been around just as long as me, had her story Betrayal copied, too. Right now, this user has a note posted on her profile that her stories Across the Ocean and Betrayal are taken down for rewriting and will be posted again in a few days, but Chedea got there in time to go through chapters of Betrayal and see that they were straight up copied out.

There are two other stories posted and I have no idea if they are plagiarised, but  I am majorly annoyed.

I haven't been in contact with her yet, but the fact that she told blondebella that if she knew her daughters had been writing the kind of fics blondebella has written, she would restrict their internet priveledges until they were 18 for the things they'd done. All I can say is you're setting a fine example to your daughters by copying a 20 year olds (17 when I came up with it, 18 when I wrote the majority of it) piece of garbage fanfiction to claim as your own. A fine adult, you are.

I'm not listing her name here, because I've yet to speak to her myself, or report her to fanfiction, but I am majorly annoyed that not only did she post it as her own, she is still claiming it's her own and won't erase her profile, with my story title in it. SO, so annoyed.

She didn't respond to a message from Chedea, but will respond to pm's other users send her with nasty comments. Iyeshana, a friend of mine, pm'd her rather angrily last night, and I'm waiting to see if she gets a response so I can take action myself.

I HOPE she posts the story again, because the shit storm of annoyance coming her way is going to be massive.

I hope you guys will vouch for me, you've been here since the very beginning of Across the Ocean, you know the story behind my inspiration, you know my poor updating habits, and you have access to the cover page that I made myself in photoshop.

Yeah. I'm pretty sure that story is mine.

Later Taters, expect an update on Kismet soon!



EDITTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I contacted dhadame myself (she's the one accused of plagiarising). Essentially, the messages sent back and forth involved a lot of her talking down to me, at least that's what it felt like. She kept talking about the fact that I was from Canada, and things must be done differently there, which is ridiculous. She's from Denver- Canada and America are essentially the same thing, sweetheart.

I asked for a copy of her original Across the Ocean to read for myself- she ignored that.

She ignored my mention of Chedea messaging her about seeing her story on the site herself, word for word written down, and when I mentioned it a second time, she asked for proof. You took down the proof, honey.

And now, Across the Ocean is rewritten and posted on her profile page again, with a different name, and mildly different storyline. She's miffed about the pm's she's been getting, saying that it's making her doubt the other things she's writing to see if she accidentally copied someone else.

I am sorry.
There is NO possible way that you can write two fics the exact same way as two other fics on ff.net, give them the exact same title, and expect it to be coincidence. Chedea told me it had to have been copy and pasted. dhadame took down her stories, and that is the first sign to me that there was something majorly wrong.

The site has told her now that nothing can be done because her stories were taken down, but I am still upset about this, and I will be for a long time. I feel like an apology is owed to both Chedea myself, and while I'm trying not to make a big hoopla about this, I feel like you guys, my readers, needed to be informed.

So that's that for now. I have no idea if I mentioned anything I intended too, but I am too tired and annoyed to double check.

Okay.
Here's the deal.
I have truly been trying to make an effort to be a good writer.
I uploaded a new story in October called Kismet and had planned on making weekly updates, but here's the thing.

I am a second year University student.
In order to get anywhere in life I need to attend classes and do well in classes which takes a lot of work for me, I will admit this.
Immediately after uploading Kismet I had mid terms, then i had a bunch of papers and assignments to do and then I had final exams.
Tomorrow is my last day of classes and I am going to try to update another chapter before my first day of exams. I admittedly have half the chapter written, I just have other things to do.

After I update Kismet again and find the half written chapter of Camarilla, I will update Camarilla as well.
So please
I do know what updating is. I don't think you've noticed, but I've had my fanfiction account since 2003, and I've been writing for Twilight since 2006. I have more experience than a lot of the more popular writers on this site.
And yes, I do plan on updating. If the story is incomplete, I will complete it.
I realise it's been months, but it doesn't help to get reviews like that when i've been trying my hardest to work on it as much as possible. I'm sorry I have an education to obtain and writers block.

I'm seriously considering turning off anonymous reviews because of the few I've received in the past while. I know, trust me, I know how long it takes me to update, because I hate when authors I like act like I do, which is why I feel so bad and try to write. It doesn't help getting reviews that, while they aren't scathing and mean, they still hit a nerve.

In other news.
Kismet should be updated before the 10th, that's my first final.
I started a blog, you can read it here.
It is entirely non-Twilight related, I'm posting like journal entires, recipes, arts and crafts I do there, so if you'd like to be a pal with wordpress and drop a line, I wouldn't mind, and if you don't- it's there to read!

I'm going to try and make a more concious effort to post things here, which I do say a lot, but now I mean it. New Years Resolutions, perhaps.

Also, I'm considering taking down Clandestine until I finish Camarilla and Kismet. I also have a couple of other short stories to post that are halfway written ( I did a lot of writing on paper over the summer) that I am looking forward to posting.
When I post Camarilla again I'm going to rewrite it the way that I said I originially wanted to write it.

So there's my little update in the middle of my last french class for you.
Happy Holidays!

quick question for you guys: blogger/blogspot or wordpress, which one do you think is better? I'm thinking of moving away from Livejournal since I spam up my flist with my posts.

edit:

or tumblr.

what do you think.

Do you ever get in a mood where you're just genuinely really, really happy?

That happened to me tonight.

(Side note, Across the Ocean won Most Original Stoyline on Twilight Twins award, won runner up for Best Edward and Bella on the TCFanfic Awards, and Stuck! WON The best short fic on TCFanfic Awards, THANKS SO MUCH YOU GUYS)

I work at a Convenience Store/Gas Bar, so I work 8 hour shifts in either the morning or night, and I work by myself. As such there isn't really anyone around to put the blame on when I fuck up, so I usually wind up leaving feeling sort of guilty.

When I close the store I have to drop all the money left in my till into the safe and then print out the required reports which tell me how much cash I have on hand, be it short or over.

Tonight the report looked something like: Cash On Hand: 0.00

...

I CLOSED PERFECTLY!

I am so pleased with myself OH MY GOD A HUGE BUG.

I just ran upstairs and found a shoe to beat a beetle to death with. I usually throw my cat at bugs but with beetles she sits there and watches them terrorize the village. and by village i mean me.

Anyway, after closing perfectly I decided to treat myself to the subway I'd been contemplating all night, because there was a cute boy working who talks to me whenever I go in. Nine in the Afternoon by Panic at the Disco was on when I got in my car, which just brightened my mood even more, and when I got to Subway I walked into the door instead of pulling it open, and I think the cute friendly boy might have seen.

The only downer to this glorius evening (aside from previously mentioned bug) was that the cute nice boy didn't make my sub as he usually does, providing me with a complete conversation as we wait for it to toast, his weird friend who repeats everything i tell him made it, and then i only got to talk to cute nice boy for a second to pay for it.

I used the Subway card he made me get and he smiled. It's a cute smile.

I think I go there too much at almost 12 in the night because he knew what kind of sub I had, and that I don't get a meal, just a bottle of water.

I was too giddy to care though, since I kept singing 9 in the afternoon when I got in the car and nearly ran a red light before I got on the highway and sped at 130 the whole 20 minute drive home.

woops.

In any case, I am super happy, and I have creeped pictures of Rob Pattinson for a while, and now I feel a little tired, but I am going to type up this chapter of Camarilla I have written, before I go look for a fic and get in bed.

At work I outlined a fic I've been wanting to write for a long time. I outlined 12 chapters in 6 exercise book pages before i went back over it and scratched out most things and I'm happy with it. I wrote an entire oneshot at work two shifts ago, wrote a 6 chapter story since I've been working there, wrote 4 chapters of a story I don't think I'm going to finish, and started another short fic that i absolutely love. My only problem is the typing part. I also wrote the outtake of Across the Ocean forever ago. Tomorrow morning I am going to try and type it up! Probably won't though. sleep is too comforting.

Anyway.

Writing now, Happy now, hope you're all happy too!

Stuck! Has been nominated for TCFanfics Best Short, voting begins July 18th
Across the Ocean has been nominated for TCFanfics Best Edward and Bella, voting begins July 18th
Across teh Ocean has also been nominated for Twilight Twins Award most original plot, voting begins July 20th, I believe.
Tomorrow we find out if The Lighthouse made it to the second round of voting on the Indie Twific Awards, and then voting will recommence on the 22nd

This makes me feel pretty cool.
I hope you guys vote for your faves, and thanks to whoever voted for me
I'm going to try and make an effort to post more on here.
I actually made a GIGANTIC entry while baking cookies, and I had a commentary and everything, and then i clicked a link and it changed from this page, so I got disheartened. :(

what would you guys thing if I started a blog on like, blogspot or something. would you rather me be here, or should i have my own separate space.
I'm like my separateness right now.

What is wrong with me. Really now.
If I write for ten more minutes I could finish this chapter of the lighthouse, and then I'd only have to write two more chapters of it and it would be FINISHED. Completed. I could put it aside and feel happy about it.

Unfortunately when I get to this point in a chapter my brain apparently decides it would be much more fun to look up as many fics as possible to read. Which I have done.

So, today when I decided to finish the lighthouse my brain said 'yo emma. what the frig does the lighthouse even look like. '
and I said 'well brain, it does NOT look like the lighthouse picture on the cover, amazingly enough.

You see, I always picture the lighthouse tower standing tall and proud and then there being a rather large house beneath it. Not separate, attached. And I can't find pictures of a house big enough like that.
Fortunately for me, a few weeks ago the ridiculously cheesy move 'Yours, Mine and Ours' came on YTV and turns out that the gigantic family in that movie moved into the Cullens' lighthouse.

OR you know. The other way around.
Either way, today my brain has decided to find a picture of that lighthouse to show you guys, because sometimes it is fun to see pictures of things that are in fics you are reading.
Unfortunately, a regular old picture of this lighthosue does not exist, and I can't do research well enough to find the name of the lighthouse to get a better pictures.

So, I watched one of the trailers for the movie, took a screen cap, fixed it in paint, loaded it to photobucket (which i need to never go on again because I Was destracted for half an hour by looking up 'edward cullen' for kicks), and now here it is.


And here's the movie trailer, just for fun.

Okay, so I just read this over, and livejournal apparently likes to make up words. Looks at this sentence I had before: OR you know. The other way around.

According to livejournal's spellcheck, or maybe it's firefox, but other is spelt wrong and the  aroun in around is underlined red. Just like the se in see and fu in  fun  is underlined.

....


lj puts the fu in fun amirite?
lul

the end.

p.s. i am so madly in love with the New Moon trailer and as much as my friends and I dislike Jacob when he showed up in the trailer we all got very excited.
They must be doing something right.
and by they I mean Chris Weitz and definitely not Catherine Hardwicke.

O_O

I will shut up now as this will get lengthy on my friends page, but my internet is being stupid so a cut is out of the question.
A cut is ALWAYS out of the question. hahhaa.

Oh the title makes me laugh, since Clandestine means and closley guarded secret, and I am telling you secrets about Clandestine . I am so silly.

HERE ARE SOME FUN FACTS ABOUT MY FIC CLANDESTINE, since I am writing an update for it now, and I just realised something.

I've written out an outline for this fic, and while It follows the basics of what cause me to start writing it, it's missing the primary factors that made me come up with it.

The whole reason I wanted to write this book was because I had an image in my head of Edward with a hollowed out book in his hand, and inside of it were tokens from the dates he went on with Bella.

It was supposed to be Carlisle and Esme as Edward's parents, and Carlisle was very strifct on Edward doing well in school, and NOT dating, which was why Edward had to keep Bella a secret. Essentially, Carlisle was going to find Edward and Bella together, flip out, and then Edward would leave and Carlisle would see he was wrong.

Also, Marie was never supposed to be in it. It was supposed to be Bella moved home to take care of Rosalie, and then Jasper moved home as well since they had no other family left. I don't know when Alice and Emmett were supposed to come into play though.

I think the first factor for the big change was that in the original one, I wanted it to take place in the 50s. But, since I don't know too much about that time, and I didn't want to kid myself and try to write a decent fic, I changed it to modern times. Then I figured Carlisle would be a much more modern, easy going father, so that scratched that.

Essentially, when I sat down to write the first chapter I had a high society upper class family in my mind, so Edward's original parents seemed to best fit that role, since I couldn't imagine Esme being that mean.

So there you go. In the outline there is no mention of the hollowed out book, and I rather like the original version much better (even if it involved a peeping tom Mike Newton as the catalyst for all the conflict). Still, I think Clandestine is alright.

Do you?

THERE'S A LITTLE FUN FACT FOR YOU.
Now I want to know if the original version or the one I have published was better. hm...
(i think the original was.)

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA


AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA
OH GOD I AM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW.

I ACCIDENTALLY STUMBLED UPON A FIC CALLED THE FORBIDDEN ROOM, AND I DIDN'T LOOK AT THE CHARACTERS OF IT TO SEE THAT IT WAS EDWARD/JASPER

BASICALLY EDWARD WAS LOOKING FOR A ROOMMATE AND JASPER APPLIED AND WHEN HE CAME OVER TO SEE THE HOUSE THERE WAS A FORBIDDEN ROOM AT THE TOP OF THE STAIRS

AND HE OPENED THE DOOR AND IT WAS FILLED WITH BONDAGE EQUIPMENT

AHAHAHAAAA.

I have to see what happens.

“I asked you specifically not to come in to this room.” He said slowly, and I nodded. I looked down again, not wanting to see his disapproval. He reached out tentatively, and lifted my chin with his fingers. He looked into my face for an immeasurable period. I don’t know what he found there, but he seemed to come to a decision.

“It seems that you have a choice to make.” He said finally, and I looked up. “You can either be naked and waiting for me in this room on Saturday at nine am, or you can be out of the house by the end of the month. I will fully refund your deposits, and we will part amicably.”



AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA
This is the best slashfic I have ever read.

"I will train you, discipline you, and meet your sexual needs."

very frank, to the point.
Well done.

You may not engage in other sexual relationships or satisfy your own needs, and you will follow my instructions to the letter. Do you understand?” I nodded, and he continued. “You will have a safe word. If you do not wish to continue our relationship, and you wish to leave this house as we discussed previously you need only to say the word. That word is Twilight.

I AM SERIOUSLY CRYING FROM LAUGHING.


28 CHAPTERS LONG????
AND NOMINATED FOR AWARDS
I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE.
i must stop.


toooo funny.

Oh and apparantly Bella is in on it all.

weird, but hilariousssss

This place is covered in tire tracks from the plows and I'm really glad that there are walking paths everywhere, since I just walked over a lawn to cut a corner and proceeded to cover my converse in mud.

Upsetting.

For almost a month this place looked like spring, and then there were three late winter storms that have mnade it look like complete dirt again.

Right now I feel poetic. I feel like I could write you an entire novel, because the windows above me are pouring in evening sunlight and some people are not being silent despite the large SILENT AREA painted on all the walls.

I have tea, I have my laptop, I have papers and books and post its and a sweater for when I get cold. I have stacks and stacks of books waiting of three floors of this building for me to dance through

and all i want to do is write.
I want to write something original
i want to make use of my fictionpress
but at the same time i can't let go of ff.net
and i also have to do this eight page paper
so i guess i better go

emma says:
 so someone started translating only you
Katie says:
 ok
emma says:
 which made me feel pretty good
Katie says:
 only you?
 i don't remember this
 lol
emma says:
 ma fic
Katie says:
 maybe i do
 which one
emma says:
 the jalice
Katie says:
 cause you have like 20 haha
 OHHH
 THE ONE WITH THE PLANE AND THE JASPER
 AND THEY MEET AT A HOTEL
 AND HE'S LIKE HEY YOUR BABBIN AND SHE'S LIKE I KNOW THANKS
 not really but i liked it
 it was the one after the movie that i can't remember the name of but you emailed it to me
 yes indeed i liked
emma says:
 YEAH!
 HAHAHHAHAA

Yes! So, elianna.cullen has very kindly decided to translate Only You into Spanish! The first chapter is up on her profile now, so if you would like to read it, do so!

please crawl in a hole and die.

If anyone bothers to check this, hello! I am back from my hiatus, I nearly have a complete chapter of clandestine done, i'm about to work on another for the lighthouse, I have an outline for camarilla written, and I am looking forward to updating and posting new stories.

However log in and account use on ff.net is 'down for a few minutes, please excuse the brief inconvenience' ... for the past few days.

Remember that rant I had about ff.ne? I stand by it.

please don't add me to msn and remind me that I haven't posted.
it's not my fault.

I feel mildly accomplished at this moment in time.

I just renewed my library books so that I don't have to pay lots of money by the time I get back to school.

Also, I am on my new laptop which means: Hiatus over!
Therefore updates will be as follows:
Clandestine,
Hot off The Presses
The Lighthouse
Camarilla.

I've written an outline for camarilla
and i've also started writing two new stories by hand, not sure if i want to post one of them.
I promise though, that when I get these done, I will work on only one story at a time.
I haven't thought of any short stories yet, though.

Right on. I'm watching the scream channel and trying to write Clandestine. I wish I had some chocolate.
My mother's house is deprived of snacks. D:

Would it be a really terrible thing if I wanted to post another story before I finished Clandestine, Camarilla and The Lighthouse? Why is Firefox telling me that Camarilla isn't a word. I got it from a word of the day!

I was working yesterday and came up with a new story idea. The ideas I have so far are a top secret Edward pov story, a top secret Jasper pov story, and a really cute different Pregnant Bella type story.

If anyone's read The Nature of Jade, my new story I want to to Twilight that. I think it would be really nice and I basically planned out the WHOLE thing in my brain yesterday at work.

Would that be bad? If I did that?
Should I finish these three and then maybe do one or two?
I'M SO CONFLICTED.

Hello everyone!

Just wanted to let you know that once again 'Across the Ocean' has been nominated for several awards over at the Twilight Awards!

It has been nominated for:
Best T-rated Complete story (and it's up against If Every Word I Said Could Make You Laugh. I feel like we know who's going to win. IEWIS.)
Most Original Plot
Best Edward/Bella
and Best AU, up against IEWIS again.

I'm up against  lots of stories, but I haven't read any of them... hahaha.

So, you guys. If you'd like to show your support, that would be absolutely fantastic. This is the second Twilight Award round that Across the Ocean has been nominated for. It was also nominted in the Denali Coven awards. It won runner up to Ferrin Landry for Most Original Plot, and in that round I was up for Best Author , didn't win that.

It is getting a little disheartening that I'm always nominated and I always lose, but oh well. I don't post Author's Notes so I can't really suck up to everyone to  vote (I might) But It would be really rad if you guys did!

Across the Ocean is my most popular story. It's the only one to have at least 100 reviews for each chapter, and I love it to pieces. I'd really like to see it do well in these awards.

Maybe a little bit of an incentive is under the cut- I made the cover for it!

( Cover page here... )
P.S. I am a staff member on the Twilight Awards. I'm a validator, so I read the stories that are sent in for nominations and see if they're good enough to go up with the rest of the nominees. I have nothing to do with Across the Ocean being up! A very nice person told me they nominated me, and then when I went to look for my story  to see if the other Validators had said anything- I could.not.find.it. Then I got the message from the Twilight Awards saying I was nominated- I still can't find it! hahahah.

This journal is a test to see how many of you would actually watch if i made videos and uploaded them to my youtube channel.

because i have one.. but for subscriptions and favourites.
I want to make videos though....
what do you think?

DEAR ROBERT PATTINSON.

You're babin' with the shaved head on the go.

I rather much like it.

You remind me of Dean Winchester

:

ahhhh yes...

I updated The Lighthouse last night (early this morning) and now I'm going to go try to finish Accident and Emergency.
You see I've found a solution to my need for distraction!
Should I require a distraction, I will work on the COVERS! For all my new stories.
genious!

Happy Holidays all.

I posted the last chapter tonight of Only You. It was only a short story, and I'm happy it's over, because now I have one less story to work at, and I am closer to having all of my current stories finished, so that then I can just work on the new one's I have in mind!

now, allow me to offer you an excerpt of the author's note I posted at the beginning of Only You and at the beginning of the last chapter.

PLEASE NOTE! I DO NOT MEAN TO SOUND MEAN! I REALLY REALLY DON'T HATE MY REVIEWERS, I THINK YOU'RE ALL SPECTACULAR, IT'S JUST THAT SOMETIMES I GET A LITTLE FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE IN GENERAL. DON'T HATE ME?

FIRST CHAPTER AUTHOR'S NOTE!:
This is only going to be a threeshot.
Maybe if you're lucky four.

LAST CHAPTER AUTHOR'S NOTE:
So here is THE END. IT IS OVER. THIS LITTLE THREE SHOT THAT I SAID FROM THE BEGINNING WAS A THREE SHOT. IT IS OVER. DO NOT ADD IT TO AN ALERT, DO NOT ASK FOR MORE! It fascinates me how many reviews I got on completed stories, asking when I was going to update! READ.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you want to know what my second and third reviews tonight said?

1:Too Cute!

Was that the end?

2: Now I'm sad. [Sniffles.] One of my favourite stories to be ended right after the third chapter? [Goes and sits in a corner to cry.]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you not understand why I am the least bit angry?
after my big rant about reviews and asking stupid questions before finishing the story, do you understand why i've stopped being a really nice author and replying to peoples' reviews and been cheerful all the time? Do you get it?

this frustrates me. and I'm trying really hard to not scream/ turn on caps locks. because in my head i am YELLING.

As such, this is now my rant on author's notes.

here it is:

READ THEM.

The End.

P.s. I was at my mother's house for a few days so I updated and the like. I have finals the 9th 10th 12th and 16th, then I'm coming straight home on the 16th until classes start again January 8th. See you then.

Alright, let's see how this goes.

LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR!

This story is first and foremost an experiment in descriptive writing. I DID NOT HAVE A SET PLOT IN MIND WHEN I BEGAN IT, AND NOW I FEEL THE NEED TO MAKE IT NOT A SHORT STORY. As such, this will take a veryyy different track than it did in the song. I want to try to become a better descriptive writer, so I am putting the characters into a couple of different situations. I'm trying to keep this as close to character as possible too, though. DON'T EXPECT THIS TO FOLLOW THE SONG.

I will first answer the questions that basically everyone has asked, then I am going to pick apart a few reviews given by one person, the reviews that have made me so amazingly pissed off with everyone and have made my motivation diiiiiiieee.

Here we go!

Q: What is the setting of this story? (Time period, country, city, etc.)
A: I don't really know! To be perfectly honest with you, this is one hundred percent (100%) AU. Alternate Universe. SO au in fact, that it does not take place on this PLANET. Goodness. The time period is meant to be around the 1930s-50s, so imagine that sort of garb, lifestyle, etc. Also, it is meant to be in the World War II era, thus the conflict and battles and stuff. Now, while they are living in the American equivelant of my au, and America wasn'r really bombed or attacked directly in WWII (I think, right?) Let's just pretend. I'm not going to be naming city names, and if I do and they're like 'New York' or 'Chicago' or anything like that, then they're not like the real ones. As a matter of fact, if I name city names, I'm going to make them 'St. John's' or 'Gander' or something. Something that I'm sure only I would know, hahaha.

Q: How old is everyone in this story?
A: Again, AU, so I'm bumping up Edward's age to 19. hahahahaa. It probably doesn't make a big difference in the long run, but Bella and Emmett are 19, and Alice is 18. :) she's not little sister like 6 year old. Don't worry, hahah

Q: Why wasn't Bella wondering about her brother and sister and their safety?
A: Okay. Imagine that you just woke up and discovered that not only your city was destroyed, but you and your siblings were nearly killed, and saved by vampires. That's a pretty radical difference isn't it? Wouldn't you need a little time to adjust to the fact that you can never eat cake, lettuce, chocolate, apples, anything ever again? I would. And, if there were blood curdling screeches coming from all corners of the house, I'd be even more shaken up than anything. Bella has good reason for doing what she does. She isn't so heartless as to forget her siblings; she's worried, yes,  but she's also just gone through a life changing event.

Q: Why can't Bella remember the pain of the transformation?
A: This isn't anything to do with her memory, it's just me. I'd imagine that coming out of days of pain would feel like such a relief that it'd be hard to imagine the pain anymore. It'd be more like a memory, or a dull throb than anything.

Q: Wasn't Bella's transformation a bit fast?
A: It was leading in to the third day, and she'd lost a lot of blood. So in my mind in makes sense for the venom to spread a lot more quickly, does it not? Also, the difference in their changes is due to Rosalie and Edward trying to heal Alice and Emmett, but Alice was too far gone, and Emmett begged to be changed. I can't remember if this was answered, but I'll mention it again in the future. Actually, I think it was coming up!

Q: Wahwah update soon?
A: No.
Hahaha. Please, don't ask me to update soon. It's not going to work. OF COURSE I AM going to finish all of my stories, but I generally write the ones I have immediate inspiration for. Then, if I don't have a stroke of genious for one of them, I look at the one that hasn't been updated in the longest amount of time and try to finish that one up to post. Patience is a virtuuue.

OKAY. NOW I AM GOING TO LOOK AT THREE REVIEWS BY ONE PERSON WHICH REALLY FRUSTRATED ME AND MADE ME WANT TO STOP WRITING THIS STORY. And yes, I AM going to finish this story, don't worry guys. But, if the person who wrote these actually see's this, please read the whole thing through. Nothing would frustrate me more to have you attacking these responses. keep an open mind, hmm?

#1 Review for Chapter 2

Hmm...I'm not sure how to take this. From your description of the outfit Bella put on, I suppose that this is present day (tall furry boots?), but I don't get a total feel for where she lives, why it was being bombed, etc. From the first chapter, my mind immediately shot to the Blitz, but apparently I was wrong.

Also...Bella seems to be taking the fact that she's a vampire way too easily. Like, "Oh, I'm a mythical creature now? Okay!" No, I don't think it would happen like that. And you can explain it however you see it, and say that, "Well Bella's very accepting," or something like that, but it doesn't make up for the fact that, in the story, she just jumps up and is totally okay with being a vampire, and that was rather unrealistic.

Otherwise, I'm intriguied. A little frustrated, but intrigued. And 'one' in French is 'un,' not 'une.' For shame, Canadian! :-P Although I suppose it's rude to assume that all Canadians speak French fluently. Anyways...to the next chapter. :)


Q:From your description of the outfit Bella put on, I suppose that this is present day (tall furry boots?)

A: Where I come from, Newfondland Canada, Wayyy back in the day women used to wear nice little dresses and skirts and the like. My grandmother has some nice pictures of herself in black and white when my mom was younger. In the winter, they'd wear thick tights like leggings, and probably woollen socks on top if they were being practical, slippers at least. The boots that they wore were big, and lined in fur. More than likely not, seal fur.

Q: but I don't get a total feel for where she lives, why it was being bombed, etc.

A: Answered.

Q:Bella seems to be taking the fact that she's a vampire way too easily. Like, "Oh, I'm a mythical creature now? Okay!" No, I don't think it would happen like that. And you can explain it however you see it, and say that, "Well Bella's very accepting," or something like that, but it doesn't make up for the fact that, in the story, she just jumps up and is totally okay with being a vampire, and that was rather unrealistic

A: Well why not? Bella had nothing left for her in her human life. Her parents were dead. The idea of becoming a mythical creature was probably a better one to accept than; oh hello your city was bombed and destroyed and now you're dead. If I woke up from a night mare like the one she'd been through before her change I'd probably say 'okay' too. Not to mention, Bella deals with it in her own way, in her head, when she's by herself, but this is the second chapter you reviewed, so I guess you didn't get to see what else happened before you jumped to conclusions. I mean, Bella upon discovering Edward was a vampire said 'oh cool' and went on her way, did she not?

And before the 'wah wah she was in love with him' comes into effect, that same extra emotion can be applied to the fact that her entire family was dead or dying.

#2 Review for Chapter 3

Huh...I really don't understand this. "Mother and "Father"? Furry boots? What time is this? What war is this? And now they're looters, too? Hmm...not really redeeming yourself...

Q:"Mother and "Father"?
A: Are you kidding me? In reference to Charlie and Renee? In a time period such as this? Parent's did not divorce as commonly back then, and they were much more respected than nowadays.

Q: Furry boots?
A: Answered

Q:What time is this? What war is this?
A: Both answered

Q:And now they're looters, too?
A: Okay. May I point out that in Twilight it is said that half of their fortune is due to Alice being able to see trends in the stock market. Without Alice, half of their fortune is gone, essentially. Sure, Carlisle has his resources and I'm certain he's filthy rich by now, but when you suddenly have three extra people in the house and you need clothes and various other things fast, you take what you can get.

#3 Review for Chapter 4

Okay, I really don't get where you're coming from on this one. Not only am I baffled by the time period (either the technology or the fashion or the vernacular is out of place, I don't know which), I am baffled by how you're trying to proceed with the plot, and not pleasantly. I didn't like how Bella kind of went about her business, totally accepting vampirism, and ignoring her brother's and sister's screams until this chapter, where you kind of threw it in as an afterthought, and not in a good way at that. Bella's character is not as selfish as you depicted her in this, and if you wanted her personality to be different, you needed to make that clear from the beginning (that she was not as good of a person as she is in the books). I'm all up for making characters do what you want them to, but consistency is necessary. With AU's that are so exceptionally different from the books, you need to treat it like you're writing your own books, and basically building characters and relationships ESPECIALLY up from the ground. Now you know I'm one of your biggest fans, but I am incredibly frustrated and upset by this fic. :((

Q: Not only am I baffled by the time period (either the technology or the fashion or the vernacular is out of place, I don't know which), I am baffled by how you're trying to proceed with the plot, and not pleasantly. I didn't like how Bella kind of went about her business, totally accepting vampirism, and ignoring her brother's and sister's screams until this chapter, where you kind of threw it in as an afterthought, and not in a good way at that.
A: Okay. time period, fashion, accepting vampirism, all answered. Ignoring her brother's and sister's screams, addressed in chapter five. Guys, when I say patience is a virtue, I really really mean it! I've had these five chapters written for a long time, so it makes more sense to me. But this is DESCRIPTIVE WRITING, and I am not going to include every little detail, I want to concentrate on the mood, the atmosphere, the tone.

Q:Bella's character is not as selfish as you depicted her in this
A: I certainly didn't plan on making her this selfish! She's spent her entire life taking care of her brother and sister, and now she's the one who needs taking care of, that's all.

Q:With AU's that are so exceptionally different from the books, you need to treat it like you're writing your own books, and basically building characters and relationships ESPECIALLY up fromthe ground.
A: Well, I've said time and time again that this story is radically AU. But apparantly no one is listening to me.

I think that's it for now. As more are asked I'll answer them and add them in. But I mean it guys, patience is necessary. If you don't like it, then stop reading it and go read someone else's fanfiction or go read other ones of mine. I have short stories, full length stories, in progress stories, and even FOUR MORE that I am planning on posting, so chilllllllll.

can someone PLEASE recommend me a really decent fanfiction.
I just spent the past two days laughing my arse off at If Every Word I Said Could Make You Laugh
and now, sadly, I am at a loss of good fics.

And yeah, there's my community, which is actually called Decent, but I just want something now  with the assurance that it's really good.

please, and/or thankyou.

I promise to make a real entry soon. 

wtf, ff.net? what is your problem?

I thought we were above this. you haven't crapped out this badly in years.

Here's how it goes.
I started on ff.net in 2003 for things like Final Fantasy and Zelda games. and when I started reading Twilight mid 2006, I decided to come creeping on ff.net again. That was when I really started using the alert system and everything.

When I first started writing fanfiction was when I noticed what a crap place ff.net was, though it was the best source for fics. There were constantly problems, with trying to edit coduments properly, and with the whole alert system. It worked, then it didn't work.

AND THEN FOR A FEW MONTHS THEY MADE UPGRADES AND FOR A WHILE THERE IT WAS THE AWESOMEST PLACE TO WORK. Like really; there were never any glitches with the various alerts, there weren't anymore; hey you can't upload your documents problems. There weren't any problems with document manager.

They made updrades, like the beta reader profiles, which sounds like a really neat idea to me! I'm more of a freelance beta, so I didn't make a profile, but all of the upgrades and changes they made were so awesome

Then, after I posted the five new stories at once, I noticed the document manager was being a bitch.

and now this.
ff.net, you have gone back to your crappy ways.

why?!

My biggest problem with FF.net is that it's not a very user friendly site. I have no idea who the people running it are, how many people there are. I have no way of contacting anyone when there is something wrong! There used to be a 'if this problem persist please email us here:' thing, but  I have no way of getting that now.

i really think there should be some moderators, or administrators. Someone set for each category, each book, show, whatever. Someone with a penname, that we could pm, sort of like BK.  I'd like to see rules enforced, people kicking out the really awful fics that are pretty much breaking all rules (there was one where bella had sex with michael jackson and had a bunch of kids and then edward wanted her back, so she said okay, and mj was sad) -that one used to post a new story for each chapter. god.

But nooo.
and now, I'm not even sure that they know these problems are back. The news section on the front page hasn't been updated in a long time.

God. FF.net, if I didn't need you so badly to live, i'd be pissed and go somewhere else.
jeez.