The Writing Desk

What is wrong with me. Really now.
If I write for ten more minutes I could finish this chapter of the lighthouse, and then I'd only have to write two more chapters of it and it would be FINISHED. Completed. I could put it aside and feel happy about it.

Unfortunately when I get to this point in a chapter my brain apparently decides it would be much more fun to look up as many fics as possible to read. Which I have done.

So, today when I decided to finish the lighthouse my brain said 'yo emma. what the frig does the lighthouse even look like. '
and I said 'well brain, it does NOT look like the lighthouse picture on the cover, amazingly enough.

You see, I always picture the lighthouse tower standing tall and proud and then there being a rather large house beneath it. Not separate, attached. And I can't find pictures of a house big enough like that.
Fortunately for me, a few weeks ago the ridiculously cheesy move 'Yours, Mine and Ours' came on YTV and turns out that the gigantic family in that movie moved into the Cullens' lighthouse.

OR you know. The other way around.
Either way, today my brain has decided to find a picture of that lighthouse to show you guys, because sometimes it is fun to see pictures of things that are in fics you are reading.
Unfortunately, a regular old picture of this lighthosue does not exist, and I can't do research well enough to find the name of the lighthouse to get a better pictures.

So, I watched one of the trailers for the movie, took a screen cap, fixed it in paint, loaded it to photobucket (which i need to never go on again because I Was destracted for half an hour by looking up 'edward cullen' for kicks), and now here it is.


And here's the movie trailer, just for fun.

Okay, so I just read this over, and livejournal apparently likes to make up words. Looks at this sentence I had before: OR you know. The other way around.

According to livejournal's spellcheck, or maybe it's firefox, but other is spelt wrong and the  aroun in around is underlined red. Just like the se in see and fu in  fun  is underlined.

....


lj puts the fu in fun amirite?
lul

the end.

p.s. i am so madly in love with the New Moon trailer and as much as my friends and I dislike Jacob when he showed up in the trailer we all got very excited.
They must be doing something right.
and by they I mean Chris Weitz and definitely not Catherine Hardwicke.

O_O

I will shut up now as this will get lengthy on my friends page, but my internet is being stupid so a cut is out of the question.
A cut is ALWAYS out of the question. hahhaa.

Oh the title makes me laugh, since Clandestine means and closley guarded secret, and I am telling you secrets about Clandestine . I am so silly.

HERE ARE SOME FUN FACTS ABOUT MY FIC CLANDESTINE, since I am writing an update for it now, and I just realised something.

I've written out an outline for this fic, and while It follows the basics of what cause me to start writing it, it's missing the primary factors that made me come up with it.

The whole reason I wanted to write this book was because I had an image in my head of Edward with a hollowed out book in his hand, and inside of it were tokens from the dates he went on with Bella.

It was supposed to be Carlisle and Esme as Edward's parents, and Carlisle was very strifct on Edward doing well in school, and NOT dating, which was why Edward had to keep Bella a secret. Essentially, Carlisle was going to find Edward and Bella together, flip out, and then Edward would leave and Carlisle would see he was wrong.

Also, Marie was never supposed to be in it. It was supposed to be Bella moved home to take care of Rosalie, and then Jasper moved home as well since they had no other family left. I don't know when Alice and Emmett were supposed to come into play though.

I think the first factor for the big change was that in the original one, I wanted it to take place in the 50s. But, since I don't know too much about that time, and I didn't want to kid myself and try to write a decent fic, I changed it to modern times. Then I figured Carlisle would be a much more modern, easy going father, so that scratched that.

Essentially, when I sat down to write the first chapter I had a high society upper class family in my mind, so Edward's original parents seemed to best fit that role, since I couldn't imagine Esme being that mean.

So there you go. In the outline there is no mention of the hollowed out book, and I rather like the original version much better (even if it involved a peeping tom Mike Newton as the catalyst for all the conflict). Still, I think Clandestine is alright.

Do you?

THERE'S A LITTLE FUN FACT FOR YOU.
Now I want to know if the original version or the one I have published was better. hm...
(i think the original was.)

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA


AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA
OH GOD I AM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW.

I ACCIDENTALLY STUMBLED UPON A FIC CALLED THE FORBIDDEN ROOM, AND I DIDN'T LOOK AT THE CHARACTERS OF IT TO SEE THAT IT WAS EDWARD/JASPER

BASICALLY EDWARD WAS LOOKING FOR A ROOMMATE AND JASPER APPLIED AND WHEN HE CAME OVER TO SEE THE HOUSE THERE WAS A FORBIDDEN ROOM AT THE TOP OF THE STAIRS

AND HE OPENED THE DOOR AND IT WAS FILLED WITH BONDAGE EQUIPMENT

AHAHAHAAAA.

I have to see what happens.

“I asked you specifically not to come in to this room.” He said slowly, and I nodded. I looked down again, not wanting to see his disapproval. He reached out tentatively, and lifted my chin with his fingers. He looked into my face for an immeasurable period. I don’t know what he found there, but he seemed to come to a decision.

“It seems that you have a choice to make.” He said finally, and I looked up. “You can either be naked and waiting for me in this room on Saturday at nine am, or you can be out of the house by the end of the month. I will fully refund your deposits, and we will part amicably.”



AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA
This is the best slashfic I have ever read.

"I will train you, discipline you, and meet your sexual needs."

very frank, to the point.
Well done.

You may not engage in other sexual relationships or satisfy your own needs, and you will follow my instructions to the letter. Do you understand?” I nodded, and he continued. “You will have a safe word. If you do not wish to continue our relationship, and you wish to leave this house as we discussed previously you need only to say the word. That word is Twilight.

I AM SERIOUSLY CRYING FROM LAUGHING.


28 CHAPTERS LONG????
AND NOMINATED FOR AWARDS
I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE.
i must stop.


toooo funny.

Oh and apparantly Bella is in on it all.

weird, but hilariousssss

This place is covered in tire tracks from the plows and I'm really glad that there are walking paths everywhere, since I just walked over a lawn to cut a corner and proceeded to cover my converse in mud.

Upsetting.

For almost a month this place looked like spring, and then there were three late winter storms that have mnade it look like complete dirt again.

Right now I feel poetic. I feel like I could write you an entire novel, because the windows above me are pouring in evening sunlight and some people are not being silent despite the large SILENT AREA painted on all the walls.

I have tea, I have my laptop, I have papers and books and post its and a sweater for when I get cold. I have stacks and stacks of books waiting of three floors of this building for me to dance through

and all i want to do is write.
I want to write something original
i want to make use of my fictionpress
but at the same time i can't let go of ff.net
and i also have to do this eight page paper
so i guess i better go

emma says:
 so someone started translating only you
Katie says:
 ok
emma says:
 which made me feel pretty good
Katie says:
 only you?
 i don't remember this
 lol
emma says:
 ma fic
Katie says:
 maybe i do
 which one
emma says:
 the jalice
Katie says:
 cause you have like 20 haha
 OHHH
 THE ONE WITH THE PLANE AND THE JASPER
 AND THEY MEET AT A HOTEL
 AND HE'S LIKE HEY YOUR BABBIN AND SHE'S LIKE I KNOW THANKS
 not really but i liked it
 it was the one after the movie that i can't remember the name of but you emailed it to me
 yes indeed i liked
emma says:
 YEAH!
 HAHAHHAHAA

Yes! So, elianna.cullen has very kindly decided to translate Only You into Spanish! The first chapter is up on her profile now, so if you would like to read it, do so!

please crawl in a hole and die.

If anyone bothers to check this, hello! I am back from my hiatus, I nearly have a complete chapter of clandestine done, i'm about to work on another for the lighthouse, I have an outline for camarilla written, and I am looking forward to updating and posting new stories.

However log in and account use on ff.net is 'down for a few minutes, please excuse the brief inconvenience' ... for the past few days.

Remember that rant I had about ff.ne? I stand by it.

please don't add me to msn and remind me that I haven't posted.
it's not my fault.

I feel mildly accomplished at this moment in time.

I just renewed my library books so that I don't have to pay lots of money by the time I get back to school.

Also, I am on my new laptop which means: Hiatus over!
Therefore updates will be as follows:
Clandestine,
Hot off The Presses
The Lighthouse
Camarilla.

I've written an outline for camarilla
and i've also started writing two new stories by hand, not sure if i want to post one of them.
I promise though, that when I get these done, I will work on only one story at a time.
I haven't thought of any short stories yet, though.

Right on. I'm watching the scream channel and trying to write Clandestine. I wish I had some chocolate.
My mother's house is deprived of snacks. D:

Would it be a really terrible thing if I wanted to post another story before I finished Clandestine, Camarilla and The Lighthouse? Why is Firefox telling me that Camarilla isn't a word. I got it from a word of the day!

I was working yesterday and came up with a new story idea. The ideas I have so far are a top secret Edward pov story, a top secret Jasper pov story, and a really cute different Pregnant Bella type story.

If anyone's read The Nature of Jade, my new story I want to to Twilight that. I think it would be really nice and I basically planned out the WHOLE thing in my brain yesterday at work.

Would that be bad? If I did that?
Should I finish these three and then maybe do one or two?
I'M SO CONFLICTED.

Hello everyone!

Just wanted to let you know that once again 'Across the Ocean' has been nominated for several awards over at the Twilight Awards!

It has been nominated for:
Best T-rated Complete story (and it's up against If Every Word I Said Could Make You Laugh. I feel like we know who's going to win. IEWIS.)
Most Original Plot
Best Edward/Bella
and Best AU, up against IEWIS again.

I'm up against  lots of stories, but I haven't read any of them... hahaha.

So, you guys. If you'd like to show your support, that would be absolutely fantastic. This is the second Twilight Award round that Across the Ocean has been nominated for. It was also nominted in the Denali Coven awards. It won runner up to Ferrin Landry for Most Original Plot, and in that round I was up for Best Author , didn't win that.

It is getting a little disheartening that I'm always nominated and I always lose, but oh well. I don't post Author's Notes so I can't really suck up to everyone to  vote (I might) But It would be really rad if you guys did!

Across the Ocean is my most popular story. It's the only one to have at least 100 reviews for each chapter, and I love it to pieces. I'd really like to see it do well in these awards.

Maybe a little bit of an incentive is under the cut- I made the cover for it!

( Cover page here... )
P.S. I am a staff member on the Twilight Awards. I'm a validator, so I read the stories that are sent in for nominations and see if they're good enough to go up with the rest of the nominees. I have nothing to do with Across the Ocean being up! A very nice person told me they nominated me, and then when I went to look for my story  to see if the other Validators had said anything- I could.not.find.it. Then I got the message from the Twilight Awards saying I was nominated- I still can't find it! hahahah.

This journal is a test to see how many of you would actually watch if i made videos and uploaded them to my youtube channel.

because i have one.. but for subscriptions and favourites.
I want to make videos though....
what do you think?

DEAR ROBERT PATTINSON.

You're babin' with the shaved head on the go.

I rather much like it.

You remind me of Dean Winchester

:

ahhhh yes...

I updated The Lighthouse last night (early this morning) and now I'm going to go try to finish Accident and Emergency.
You see I've found a solution to my need for distraction!
Should I require a distraction, I will work on the COVERS! For all my new stories.
genious!

Happy Holidays all.

I posted the last chapter tonight of Only You. It was only a short story, and I'm happy it's over, because now I have one less story to work at, and I am closer to having all of my current stories finished, so that then I can just work on the new one's I have in mind!

now, allow me to offer you an excerpt of the author's note I posted at the beginning of Only You and at the beginning of the last chapter.

PLEASE NOTE! I DO NOT MEAN TO SOUND MEAN! I REALLY REALLY DON'T HATE MY REVIEWERS, I THINK YOU'RE ALL SPECTACULAR, IT'S JUST THAT SOMETIMES I GET A LITTLE FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE IN GENERAL. DON'T HATE ME?

FIRST CHAPTER AUTHOR'S NOTE!:
This is only going to be a threeshot.
Maybe if you're lucky four.

LAST CHAPTER AUTHOR'S NOTE:
So here is THE END. IT IS OVER. THIS LITTLE THREE SHOT THAT I SAID FROM THE BEGINNING WAS A THREE SHOT. IT IS OVER. DO NOT ADD IT TO AN ALERT, DO NOT ASK FOR MORE! It fascinates me how many reviews I got on completed stories, asking when I was going to update! READ.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you want to know what my second and third reviews tonight said?

1:Too Cute!

Was that the end?

2: Now I'm sad. [Sniffles.] One of my favourite stories to be ended right after the third chapter? [Goes and sits in a corner to cry.]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you not understand why I am the least bit angry?
after my big rant about reviews and asking stupid questions before finishing the story, do you understand why i've stopped being a really nice author and replying to peoples' reviews and been cheerful all the time? Do you get it?

this frustrates me. and I'm trying really hard to not scream/ turn on caps locks. because in my head i am YELLING.

As such, this is now my rant on author's notes.

here it is:

READ THEM.

The End.

P.s. I was at my mother's house for a few days so I updated and the like. I have finals the 9th 10th 12th and 16th, then I'm coming straight home on the 16th until classes start again January 8th. See you then.

Alright, let's see how this goes.

LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR!

This story is first and foremost an experiment in descriptive writing. I DID NOT HAVE A SET PLOT IN MIND WHEN I BEGAN IT, AND NOW I FEEL THE NEED TO MAKE IT NOT A SHORT STORY. As such, this will take a veryyy different track than it did in the song. I want to try to become a better descriptive writer, so I am putting the characters into a couple of different situations. I'm trying to keep this as close to character as possible too, though. DON'T EXPECT THIS TO FOLLOW THE SONG.

I will first answer the questions that basically everyone has asked, then I am going to pick apart a few reviews given by one person, the reviews that have made me so amazingly pissed off with everyone and have made my motivation diiiiiiieee.

Here we go!

Q: What is the setting of this story? (Time period, country, city, etc.)
A: I don't really know! To be perfectly honest with you, this is one hundred percent (100%) AU. Alternate Universe. SO au in fact, that it does not take place on this PLANET. Goodness. The time period is meant to be around the 1930s-50s, so imagine that sort of garb, lifestyle, etc. Also, it is meant to be in the World War II era, thus the conflict and battles and stuff. Now, while they are living in the American equivelant of my au, and America wasn'r really bombed or attacked directly in WWII (I think, right?) Let's just pretend. I'm not going to be naming city names, and if I do and they're like 'New York' or 'Chicago' or anything like that, then they're not like the real ones. As a matter of fact, if I name city names, I'm going to make them 'St. John's' or 'Gander' or something. Something that I'm sure only I would know, hahaha.

Q: How old is everyone in this story?
A: Again, AU, so I'm bumping up Edward's age to 19. hahahahaa. It probably doesn't make a big difference in the long run, but Bella and Emmett are 19, and Alice is 18. :) she's not little sister like 6 year old. Don't worry, hahah

Q: Why wasn't Bella wondering about her brother and sister and their safety?
A: Okay. Imagine that you just woke up and discovered that not only your city was destroyed, but you and your siblings were nearly killed, and saved by vampires. That's a pretty radical difference isn't it? Wouldn't you need a little time to adjust to the fact that you can never eat cake, lettuce, chocolate, apples, anything ever again? I would. And, if there were blood curdling screeches coming from all corners of the house, I'd be even more shaken up than anything. Bella has good reason for doing what she does. She isn't so heartless as to forget her siblings; she's worried, yes,  but she's also just gone through a life changing event.

Q: Why can't Bella remember the pain of the transformation?
A: This isn't anything to do with her memory, it's just me. I'd imagine that coming out of days of pain would feel like such a relief that it'd be hard to imagine the pain anymore. It'd be more like a memory, or a dull throb than anything.

Q: Wasn't Bella's transformation a bit fast?
A: It was leading in to the third day, and she'd lost a lot of blood. So in my mind in makes sense for the venom to spread a lot more quickly, does it not? Also, the difference in their changes is due to Rosalie and Edward trying to heal Alice and Emmett, but Alice was too far gone, and Emmett begged to be changed. I can't remember if this was answered, but I'll mention it again in the future. Actually, I think it was coming up!

Q: Wahwah update soon?
A: No.
Hahaha. Please, don't ask me to update soon. It's not going to work. OF COURSE I AM going to finish all of my stories, but I generally write the ones I have immediate inspiration for. Then, if I don't have a stroke of genious for one of them, I look at the one that hasn't been updated in the longest amount of time and try to finish that one up to post. Patience is a virtuuue.

OKAY. NOW I AM GOING TO LOOK AT THREE REVIEWS BY ONE PERSON WHICH REALLY FRUSTRATED ME AND MADE ME WANT TO STOP WRITING THIS STORY. And yes, I AM going to finish this story, don't worry guys. But, if the person who wrote these actually see's this, please read the whole thing through. Nothing would frustrate me more to have you attacking these responses. keep an open mind, hmm?

#1 Review for Chapter 2

Hmm...I'm not sure how to take this. From your description of the outfit Bella put on, I suppose that this is present day (tall furry boots?), but I don't get a total feel for where she lives, why it was being bombed, etc. From the first chapter, my mind immediately shot to the Blitz, but apparently I was wrong.

Also...Bella seems to be taking the fact that she's a vampire way too easily. Like, "Oh, I'm a mythical creature now? Okay!" No, I don't think it would happen like that. And you can explain it however you see it, and say that, "Well Bella's very accepting," or something like that, but it doesn't make up for the fact that, in the story, she just jumps up and is totally okay with being a vampire, and that was rather unrealistic.

Otherwise, I'm intriguied. A little frustrated, but intrigued. And 'one' in French is 'un,' not 'une.' For shame, Canadian! :-P Although I suppose it's rude to assume that all Canadians speak French fluently. Anyways...to the next chapter. :)


Q:From your description of the outfit Bella put on, I suppose that this is present day (tall furry boots?)

A: Where I come from, Newfondland Canada, Wayyy back in the day women used to wear nice little dresses and skirts and the like. My grandmother has some nice pictures of herself in black and white when my mom was younger. In the winter, they'd wear thick tights like leggings, and probably woollen socks on top if they were being practical, slippers at least. The boots that they wore were big, and lined in fur. More than likely not, seal fur.

Q: but I don't get a total feel for where she lives, why it was being bombed, etc.

A: Answered.

Q:Bella seems to be taking the fact that she's a vampire way too easily. Like, "Oh, I'm a mythical creature now? Okay!" No, I don't think it would happen like that. And you can explain it however you see it, and say that, "Well Bella's very accepting," or something like that, but it doesn't make up for the fact that, in the story, she just jumps up and is totally okay with being a vampire, and that was rather unrealistic

A: Well why not? Bella had nothing left for her in her human life. Her parents were dead. The idea of becoming a mythical creature was probably a better one to accept than; oh hello your city was bombed and destroyed and now you're dead. If I woke up from a night mare like the one she'd been through before her change I'd probably say 'okay' too. Not to mention, Bella deals with it in her own way, in her head, when she's by herself, but this is the second chapter you reviewed, so I guess you didn't get to see what else happened before you jumped to conclusions. I mean, Bella upon discovering Edward was a vampire said 'oh cool' and went on her way, did she not?

And before the 'wah wah she was in love with him' comes into effect, that same extra emotion can be applied to the fact that her entire family was dead or dying.

#2 Review for Chapter 3

Huh...I really don't understand this. "Mother and "Father"? Furry boots? What time is this? What war is this? And now they're looters, too? Hmm...not really redeeming yourself...

Q:"Mother and "Father"?
A: Are you kidding me? In reference to Charlie and Renee? In a time period such as this? Parent's did not divorce as commonly back then, and they were much more respected than nowadays.

Q: Furry boots?
A: Answered

Q:What time is this? What war is this?
A: Both answered

Q:And now they're looters, too?
A: Okay. May I point out that in Twilight it is said that half of their fortune is due to Alice being able to see trends in the stock market. Without Alice, half of their fortune is gone, essentially. Sure, Carlisle has his resources and I'm certain he's filthy rich by now, but when you suddenly have three extra people in the house and you need clothes and various other things fast, you take what you can get.

#3 Review for Chapter 4

Okay, I really don't get where you're coming from on this one. Not only am I baffled by the time period (either the technology or the fashion or the vernacular is out of place, I don't know which), I am baffled by how you're trying to proceed with the plot, and not pleasantly. I didn't like how Bella kind of went about her business, totally accepting vampirism, and ignoring her brother's and sister's screams until this chapter, where you kind of threw it in as an afterthought, and not in a good way at that. Bella's character is not as selfish as you depicted her in this, and if you wanted her personality to be different, you needed to make that clear from the beginning (that she was not as good of a person as she is in the books). I'm all up for making characters do what you want them to, but consistency is necessary. With AU's that are so exceptionally different from the books, you need to treat it like you're writing your own books, and basically building characters and relationships ESPECIALLY up from the ground. Now you know I'm one of your biggest fans, but I am incredibly frustrated and upset by this fic. :((

Q: Not only am I baffled by the time period (either the technology or the fashion or the vernacular is out of place, I don't know which), I am baffled by how you're trying to proceed with the plot, and not pleasantly. I didn't like how Bella kind of went about her business, totally accepting vampirism, and ignoring her brother's and sister's screams until this chapter, where you kind of threw it in as an afterthought, and not in a good way at that.
A: Okay. time period, fashion, accepting vampirism, all answered. Ignoring her brother's and sister's screams, addressed in chapter five. Guys, when I say patience is a virtue, I really really mean it! I've had these five chapters written for a long time, so it makes more sense to me. But this is DESCRIPTIVE WRITING, and I am not going to include every little detail, I want to concentrate on the mood, the atmosphere, the tone.

Q:Bella's character is not as selfish as you depicted her in this
A: I certainly didn't plan on making her this selfish! She's spent her entire life taking care of her brother and sister, and now she's the one who needs taking care of, that's all.

Q:With AU's that are so exceptionally different from the books, you need to treat it like you're writing your own books, and basically building characters and relationships ESPECIALLY up fromthe ground.
A: Well, I've said time and time again that this story is radically AU. But apparantly no one is listening to me.

I think that's it for now. As more are asked I'll answer them and add them in. But I mean it guys, patience is necessary. If you don't like it, then stop reading it and go read someone else's fanfiction or go read other ones of mine. I have short stories, full length stories, in progress stories, and even FOUR MORE that I am planning on posting, so chilllllllll.

can someone PLEASE recommend me a really decent fanfiction.
I just spent the past two days laughing my arse off at If Every Word I Said Could Make You Laugh
and now, sadly, I am at a loss of good fics.

And yeah, there's my community, which is actually called Decent, but I just want something now  with the assurance that it's really good.

please, and/or thankyou.

I promise to make a real entry soon. 

wtf, ff.net? what is your problem?

I thought we were above this. you haven't crapped out this badly in years.

Here's how it goes.
I started on ff.net in 2003 for things like Final Fantasy and Zelda games. and when I started reading Twilight mid 2006, I decided to come creeping on ff.net again. That was when I really started using the alert system and everything.

When I first started writing fanfiction was when I noticed what a crap place ff.net was, though it was the best source for fics. There were constantly problems, with trying to edit coduments properly, and with the whole alert system. It worked, then it didn't work.

AND THEN FOR A FEW MONTHS THEY MADE UPGRADES AND FOR A WHILE THERE IT WAS THE AWESOMEST PLACE TO WORK. Like really; there were never any glitches with the various alerts, there weren't anymore; hey you can't upload your documents problems. There weren't any problems with document manager.

They made updrades, like the beta reader profiles, which sounds like a really neat idea to me! I'm more of a freelance beta, so I didn't make a profile, but all of the upgrades and changes they made were so awesome

Then, after I posted the five new stories at once, I noticed the document manager was being a bitch.

and now this.
ff.net, you have gone back to your crappy ways.

why?!

My biggest problem with FF.net is that it's not a very user friendly site. I have no idea who the people running it are, how many people there are. I have no way of contacting anyone when there is something wrong! There used to be a 'if this problem persist please email us here:' thing, but  I have no way of getting that now.

i really think there should be some moderators, or administrators. Someone set for each category, each book, show, whatever. Someone with a penname, that we could pm, sort of like BK.  I'd like to see rules enforced, people kicking out the really awful fics that are pretty much breaking all rules (there was one where bella had sex with michael jackson and had a bunch of kids and then edward wanted her back, so she said okay, and mj was sad) -that one used to post a new story for each chapter. god.

But nooo.
and now, I'm not even sure that they know these problems are back. The news section on the front page hasn't been updated in a long time.

God. FF.net, if I didn't need you so badly to live, i'd be pissed and go somewhere else.
jeez.

It is 4:39 and I've less than twenty minutes to make it to work. My hair is still soaking wet, but I thought it was long overdue for me to make an entry.

I apologise for the randomness of this, and I promise to write something worthwhile tonight after work. It'll be a rant though, so watch outt...

It'll be about sequels too. I hope to have it shorter than my review rant. :S

I'd just like to point out, that since my last entry I have finished two fics; Tube and Stuck!. And I feel quite accomplished because of it. It really makes me smile, too, that people are asking me to update The Lighthouse first, since it's been my baby for so long. I started writing that around the same time I started posting Across the Ocean, so I am madly in love with it.

WARNING:
The Lighthouse is an experiment in descriptive writing, and therefore has a whole lot of nothing in it, aside from character development for the first few chapters.

It'll have mad imagery though. :D

I'm going to dry my hair, and sulk now. But when I return I shall write a rant. And you will read it, or else.

I also came up with a new story idea :( I really want to write it, too.
And I'm still writing my Edward pov, stalker in the night one.
Will you offer to let me explain new story to you, and see what you think?

Okay thanks.

I just realised that I don't update very regularly on this. 

I looked at my Archive and it's like.. one day in every month this year I'll make two entries, and then completely forget about posting.
Maybe i'll keep up often enough in the summer time.

Finals start, ironically enough, Friday the 13th. I have 4 finals in 2 days, and in total, 6 finals in four days. 
pretty much sucks.

I'm also, basically, the main news poster on a local website for the Twilight thread. Only I tried to get on today, and I'm ip address banned?!?! WTF, MATE. I'm investigating into it, but I really do NOT like being banned. I did nothing wrong, unless there's some 'maximum limit' to posts in a thread. Not to mention, it's an ip address ban, which is serious business, and I got no warning.

I'm thinking it was a mistake.

My teachers are lunatics.
I have so much work coming up for school days that come to a screeching halt next wednesday. Then it's all public exams.
And then I am free



Until I go to university and loose any life I have.
Of course... I may fail, so who knows. I might still be here next year.

Umm I can't even remember half the stuff I wanted to say.

In regards to Tube, I've seriously been opening it like, everyday the past few weeks, and I just can't write it. And I can't write Stuck! Until I write Tube. It's just how I'm feeling.

I've been working on that new story that's all about Edward being stalkery in Phoenix. I really want to write it. Like, so badly. And i'm thinking Clandestine will be the last story that I write, since all of my ideas so far have been for The Lighthouse and Camarilla. Once I start working on it, everythign should be cool.

 Okay guys, I'm feeling in a good mood, aside from the nutrition project due tomorrow that I have no idea what I'm going to do it on.

I'm feeling pretty happy.
I'm finally starting to understand shit, just in time for finals. Sure, you americans are out of school like... now, But I've still got until June 27th.
Thas right.
Canada sucks.

But, it's only because we get so much time off in the winter due to snow storms.
HAH!

Anyway. I changed my layout, something fresh-er for summer.
I changed my Title which comes from the riddle 'why is a raven like a writing desk' and the quote underneath it, they both come from Alice' Adventures in Wonderland. 

I'm going to start doing some rants, on some things about ff.net, and some other wordly issues. So far I have done Religion and Politics (very shortly) and reviews, as you've seen (not so short...)

I...
have seen Prince Caspian, and man was that ever epic. I freaking loved it.
have fallen madly in love with Rob Pattinson many times over
dyed my hair black, so sadly I don't fit the bill of Bella anymore, but I think I'll pretend I am anyway.
found a huge slab of chocolate in my room
feel less like killing myself.

All is good.

I've got a freaking tag cloud again! yayay! i love it.
I'm working on an update of Tube, there are only two chapters left after this one, same with Stuck! They'll both be six chapters. Then, I am free to write all summer.

My little cousin, who is the youngest in the family aside from the wee baby Oliver. And I think I'm going to see if Mom will arrange with the Aunt that she can come here for a weekend before heading off to g-ma's. I want to be the coolest cousin ever to her. I want to drive her around, get a movie and watch it with her, I want to make a t-shirt or a bag with/for her. It'd be great. I want to be a role model, sort of. 

Anyway.
Hell's Kitchen is on
and I have to go crack off a piece of chocolate.
:D

 This is an entry I've been meaning to make for quite some time.

It's for a little, addictive thing I like to call; reviews.

I will be using examples from my own stories, just to give you an idea, but I want to address what makes me angry about the entire reviewing system.

Firstly, I think it's absolutely ridiculous when I see people begging for reviews. When you beg for reviews, it just shows that you're greedy to me. Reviews do NOT judge how good a story is. I mean, if a story has really few reviews, go in and actually read them instead of shoving them off, they will tell you how good the story is. As a writer, if you're being disheartened by the amount of reviews you have, why don't you look at your hits, instead. That gives me more comfort. That makes me realise that people actually care.

For example. Across the Ocean, my biggest story, pretty much. 2, 022 reviews, 94,683 hits. That means that 94,683/3 people, at LEAST read this story. I mean, it could be less than that, people might have gone back over it and re-read it. The chapter with the most reviews is the last one, 17. It got 184 reviews, but 3085 hits. That is a LOT of people. The chapter with the most hits is chapter 11 with 5247 hits, and 114 reviews. Get it? Hits mean more to me than anything. When I post a chapter and go back to my stats a few minutes later, I look for 'how many people are actually reading this while I'm sitting her finishing it?' and that tells me. It's a good feeling.

Chances are, if you beg for reviews, I am not going to review it, out of spite, nearly, which makes me sound terrible, but it's true. I'm not going to force myself to say nice things just because you want more numbers after your summary. No. If you ask me to read your story, I might not read it straight away, but I save all those pm's and reviews you leave with your story titles in them, because I WILL eventually read them, and I'll leave you a review to let you know I was there. But if you ask me to read it, and then to review every single chapter, you aren't getting a thing out of me. I review when I feel it is necessary, when I think you've earned it. Bottom line.

Don't. Beg.
You're all better than that. You all write amazing stories.

SECONDLY! (jeez I talk a lot)
The calibre of reviews! They have gone down the pooper. Reviews, in real life, are meant to be what people read to get an opinion on a story, they should say something like...

"Offering more proof that there is still plenty of life in the superhero genre, "Iron Man" is the first installment of what (for better or for worse) is sure to be many sequels, and it is unquestionably this year's first legit blockbuster."

That's just the first paragraph, out of eight. This is something you'd see on fanfiction, more commonly than really good reviews.

"abuseOMG! im like, cheking 4 an update every 5 minutes. literally! PLZPLZPLZPLZPLZPLZPZLPLZ update soon!"

See what I'm talking about? (That's an actual review too.)

Pretty much, people are writing reviews because they think they have to. More commonly than not are reviews that simply contain 'omg i love it. update soon.' or, just; 'good. update soon.'

Where's your creativity people? I'm not saying that everyone should go out and make insanely long reviews, I'm saying that the one's that give you a comment, use proper grammar, for one, and even the ones that point out where you made a mistake, or what they think needs to be improve, those need to be improved.

THIRDLY! and lastly;

Inequality, and flaming.
I think reviews are meant when they are due. I have seen so many amazing stories receiving hardly the amount of reviews they deserve, and then stories that DEFINITELY don't need the high numbers there. Take Angel's Blood and Appraising Fate for example. These, are two ABSOLUTELY PHENOMENAL STORIES! I mean seriously, I am blown away every single time I read them- but they have hardly any reviews! They are two of the most beautifully written AU's I've ever read on ff.net, and yet they're being stamped out by the AH phenomenon. That's all anyone reads. Srsly. go read them. and review. And tell them how good they are- because they are.

Those two should be in the thousands, at least! It's absolutely ridiculous how good they are, and how well written they are, and they have so few reviews compared to some things nowadays.

The other end of the spectrum, is stories getting more reviews than necessary. I'm not one who goes around looking for bad stories with lots of good reviews, so I don't know any to plu, but these stories have over 500, and over TEN FREAKING THOUSAND reviews, and every single one is a flame. I'm talking about this, and this, if you're in to harry potter.

(By the way, is there any way to report someone? Because I'd like to get enough people to report those two and get them off of this for good.) Anyone remember the fic that was BellaxMichael Jackson, and each chapter was a new story? That was simply terrible, and I hope something was done about it. Those got tons of reviews too, for being so bad.

I know that I said that reviews should reflect calibre of work, but let's face it- no matter what I say, everyone is going to look at the number of reviews for quality, which is why ninecrimes and LittexMissxMuffit won't get what they deserve. 

Those two stories have nothing but FLAMES. And I think everyone needs to stop freaking reviewing them, although I think you've done a smashing job of ripping them apart. If you continue reviewing them, that's only going to keep provoquing them! I think, the bigger statement to what pieces of shit they've written is to not leave a single comment. Reviews: 0. I know that would dishearten me a lot, and it's exactly what they deserve. It's what I think of any flame, just don't flame it. Half the time when people flame they say really mean things instead of constructive criticism, and more than likely the author just freaks out completely.

Anonymous reviews too, if you're going to say something fucking stupid or flame someone, then sign the fuck in, have enough decency to do that.

I've never had a flame, thank god, out of thirteen stories, but I'm waiting for the day when someone's had enough of the bull I put out. I'm looking forward to that.

To finish off;

Oh shit, I forgot what I wanted to say. Seriously. Bahaha. I suck.

Okay. I understand entirely that everyone wants reviews, I'm just pointing out the things I don't like about it. I mean, it's fine to ask everyone to review once they've read it, and it's fine to WANT reviews, because who doesn't like hearing how people like their stories? I got a really short one today that said 'I just read your story and I wanted to let you know how much I liked it. Good job!" It made me smile, it was great. I'm not saying that you HAVE to write a movie-length review, but what's the point of review every chapter just to say 'update soon'? really now.

I like reviews just as much as the next person, and I'm going to be a little arrogant here, and say that I am a pretty popular writer, in my mind at least, so I know that I get a LOT of hits, people talk about me to other people, someone printed off Across the Ocean and got their friends to read it, it's great! It's an honour! So, that's why I don't ask for reviews anymore. I'm writing for me. I'm writing to write story's, and if you want to leave me a note, or let others know how it is, that's great.

But yeah. Holding off on stories because of no reviews is not cool, imo. it's greedy.
and i'm just getting off on another rant.

I know I'm in no position to preach, I am ranting. These are my solid opinions on reviews, and I mean- I've got a ton more coming. On summaries, cliches, author's notes and definitely some more things, once I think of them. Profiles! God, I need to rant on profiles. 

I'll probably update tomorrow with a cute little happy entry about things that don't piss me off. :) bahaha. And once I remember what I wanted to say to finish off, I'll put that in.

Sorry it's so long, f-page. but if I put it in a cut, no one would read it!

 

Chapter Two of Stuck! Is up! Well, actually, it will be up in a few minutes. I have to finish typing it. hahah. It is written though.

yayayay.

I've also come up with a new story idea- as if five wasn't enough already. goodness, I'm a glutton for punishment. 

This new story- I really like it. There are actually vampires, and it's ORIGINAL. Since the all human franchise started with Attraction (I'm not even joking. Attraction started because I asked myself- what would twilight be like if Edward was a human, too? Since there were already so many "Bella's alive in 1918 with Edward" fics, I switched it around. And then a monster was born. hahah) Anyway, I'm sort of hoping that no one will copy this... please. It started with a question; what if instead of Bella moving to Forks, Edward moved to Phoenix.

So yeah. I have a gigantic story planned out in my head, and I'm really hoping I become smarter this term so that I can write in the evenings and do all my school work during the day :B hehe. 

I think I'm going to play Kingdom Hearts for a bit. I still don't own the second one, and I was stupid enough that after years of not playing it I picked it up and decided to try it on expert. Obviously I'm a genious. But, the beginning is so LONG and BORING that I don't want to start up a new file again. I mean, it only takes me fifty tries to beat a boss, or a certain area. That's nothing big.

I wish I could remember where to get some potions.... :(

So, I'm going to go type up Stuck!, and I'm going to play games, and maybe I'll do my english assignment... ahhaa. It is due tomorrow. Alice, (type from Allie, I'm sure) do you know what the slots are tomorrow?

Oh man.